Recently most of what I’ve wanted to do is sleep, cry, or claw my brain out. I can’t get my thoughts to shut up and it makes me want to scream. I hate this suffocating feeling and I don’t know what to do to get rid of it. It’s like I can feel my mental state deteriorating. And if I tell someone, their opinion of me might blemish or they just won’t understand. I feel like I’m alone and losing.
I just want something. Something to take my mind off of things. I’m so tired of constantly thinking everything is corrupt and that I can’t trust things anymore. I just wanna go back to being carefree. Sometimes I wish I was back in elementary school again where I didn’t have to worry about all this crap.
I’ve hit rock bottom and I’m wondering if I’ll ever climb back up.
And it’s all because of this damn website.